a SAD POEM . :)

Nobody knows it's empty
This smile that i wear
The real one is left behind ..
because you have left me behind .

Nobody knows i'm crying
They wont even see my tears
When they think that i'm laughing ..
I still wishing you were here .

Nobody knows its painful
They think that i'm strong
They say that this wont kill me ..
but i wonder if they were wrong .

Nobody knows i miss you
They think i felt set free
But i feel like i'm bounded with the chains ..
trapped in this misery .

Nobody knows i need you
They say i can do it on my own
But they dont know i'm crying ..
when i'm all ALONE .

-sya-

this poem was created when im lost last days . this poem still in HEART . always .. HAHA . i dont know why im laughing for . but , this poem really meant a lot to me . i went through all of those BROKEN with this poem ..perhaps , it wont be long . im healing , people . I SUPPOSE . i HAVE TO . God knows everything . i no need to tell here . it just makes me . cry .... :')

im extremely exhausted today . HAHA . hurmmm . its okayy . i'll try to cope for the time being . da talame lagi . Bersabarlahh , Sya . :)

masalah perasaan perlu diletakkan ke tepi sebentar . aku kene belajar untuk jadi KUAT. taboleh cengengcengeng lagi . kisah pula . HAHA . yupp , belajar untuk teruskan hidup , Sya . sekurangkurangnya , cubalah bergembira sebentar . sekejap je . jangan ingat perkara lain lagi . ape yg da jadi , jadilah . betulkan ? biar je orang na cakap ape . tagune fikirkan tentang orang tatao apeape . mereka hanya boleh bercakap dan terus bercakap . hurmm . walaupun itu menyakitkan sebenarnye .

senyum , Sya . bukan kau sorang je yg hadapi bende nyhh . afifah dengan athirah pun same . malah dorang lagi terukk kan ? kau perlu bersyukurlah tapaya menghadap DIA tu tadi . kalau ta .. dengan kau , kau sekali perlu menghadap dye selame sejamm . huhh . aku cume berharap perkara nyh cepat berlalu . sakit telinge aku diperli . SAKIT ! kalau DIA tao kisah aku dengan beliau pula mesti kene macam mereka berdua tu . lagi sakit mase kene TORTURE at perhimpunan tadi . itulahh inilahhh . Arghhhhh ! hurmm , kami pun manusia gaks kan ? tade buat jahat dlm sekolah pun . luar sekolah hal masingmasinglah kan ? tapayalah campur hal sekolah . Grrr~ biarlahh .

malas na cakap pape lagi . inilah example bagi MELAYU yang LAYU . suka bercakap tanpa lihat diri sendiri . SENGAL . hehh .

note : kepenatan . kesengalan . kekecewaan . disatukan menjadi KE-ENTAH-APEAPE-AN ! . ily still . :)